Change of the seasons.

The date on the calender may say the season has changed, the weather man may say the season has changed. Anyone with asthma knows when the season really changes. Welcome to the first real day of Spring. As of Friday morning my sons asthma started acting up, also my 22 year old stepdaughter who is a sever asthmatic had issues, so yes the season has really changed.
When she had issues while at work I should have taken a hint an looked out for my son. Daily he is ok, when the season changes he needs his machine, He only has Cough Variant asthma.

Turtle beach gaming head set--- A great addition for any female who has a gaming spouse.

A few weeks ago my husband picked up these earphones for the xbox360. Turtle beach x11 They are a godsend, they allow him to play the game in the night owl hours without the tv volume all the way down. He can play and chat/talk crap while I sleep with our tv volume muted. The biggest thing is he can play 360 on 1 tv while I watch tv on another tv and I still get to hear my program.

It works for us lol.

I have used the earphones and it picks up sounds of the game I never heard before, I can hear footsteps of other players approaching me. They are pretty pricey though at $69.99 but worth it. The only draw back is this model is corded and my son has already xbox 360 burned 1 game disk by not watching his feet. The upside is there is a wifi version of the turtle beach earphones that are completely cordless but they are priced way over the $150 mark. Since hubby wants to get my son his own turtle beach earphones. I will pick up the cordless model for my husband and give the corded model to my son.

Don't let the picture fool you, these things are huge.

The new maps for Call of duty Modern Warfare 2 are great.

How to train your dragon

Last Saturday we too the kids out for a day of fun. We took them to a place they could burn off steam first, which my husband thought he lost his business card. Thank god he found it before we cancelled it. We drove my car so that's how the mix up started.


Anyway after the burn steam session we than went to the movies played a few video games and paid for the tickets to see the How to train your dragon movie in 3D. Show time was about 2 hours away so we walked over to this restaurant and had an early dinner. I had a strawberry adult drink since I was not driving. Than we drove over to the mall and let the kids pick out video games at the video store, of course we got stuff too lol. I got a yoga game for the Wii and the just dance game for Wii. After that we went and saw the movie of course the kids wanted popcorn, this was also my husbands 1st 3D movie lol at 41 years old 7 kids total and his first 3D movie, LOL.

The movie we adults liked it our kids, my son asked my husband a few times is it almost over a few times. My daughter set next to me and she had on her 3D glasses and was laying in the chair stiff as a board with her mouth open, I am not sure if that means she liked it or not but she was not moving she was just looking lol.

If you could see how she looked you would understand lol. Anyway it was a touching movie about a son who was treated badly and felt he would never be good enough for his father. One point I saw was listen to your child don't try to make them be something they don't want to. The father and town felt the son was not a man if he could not kill a dragon. If your kid wants to be a member of the chess club and you want him to play football, don't push him to do what you feel he should. Support what he wants even if it goes against your feelings.

Anyway there was 2 kiss moments and in the end the little boy lost part of his leg. Which the dragon 'tooth less' he called him, in the beginning of the film the dragon needed the little boy because he was hurt and could not fly, so the sun who was good at designing and making things made the dragon a wing extension so he could fly. When the little boy lost part of his leg he than needed the dragon when he first had to walk. It was like they both were in the same boat and needed each other, because the dragon would never fly again with the wing extension and the son would never walk again with out the leg extension.

To my husband and I the movie was touching and had good moments. To my kids ages 6 and 7 they were so so. I would not mind seeing it again.

My husband is committing to us all going out twice a month. We shall see, he works a lot and travels so we shall see, but I love the fact that he is putting forth effort to make me and us happy. He even took our son to OT the other day, which is a total first lol.

The next movie I want to see is Why did I get married too, which we won't be able to do until sometime next week.

I need a vacation.

Really or a nice massage asap.
Better yet a pill to make it all better.

I always go for the under dog.

I have a love/hate relationship with one of our 2 cats. They are brothers we picked up at the same time from a pet store. Whomever had them first trained 1 cat to be overly affectionate and dominate and the other cat to be shy/standoffish/mean. Of course I was not having this lol.

Anyway this little situation helps me see that in life situations I always root/go for the under dog.
This can be a good thing and a bad thing lol.

Anyway after lots of time with the underdog cat 5 years maybe? He now acts like a normal cat not ready to scratch and run or always on edge when you walk past him. Who ever had him first treated him like sh*1 and the other cat like gold.

Having the power to release someone from your life.

Sometimes you just have to let people go. I can not change anyone or wait around for people to change according to what I think they should be.

My circle is small and tight just like I like it. People are dropping from it like flys.

It has come to my attention that something is missing.

I hope I find it soon????
I found it lol.

Updates and what not.

So it's been awhile since I posted in hear lol.
I'll just start and let it flow from there.

So a month ago I started personal counseling to deal with my own personal issues. The first 2 were the hardest and I have had 1 since and missed 1 because of the snow. I am feeling better moving towards staying better, my husband is all for the sessions. A little about my past, I pretty much came from an abusive home, abusive in all 3 ways.

For a very long time I walked around with a hateful attitude towards the world because of what I had been through. My mother did not raise me I was raised by great grand parents, she decided at the age of 22 she was not ready to be a mom.

Anyway at 15 I told her and my fathers side of the family what had happened and such. Which they said I was lying lol. About 9 years ago I started having panic attacks and than after the birth of my kids and my mother dying ( we were just starting to move towards rebuilding our relationship), after I had my son whom was born full term but sick. I started going through depression off and on and recently right after getting married . So anyway I am now in the process of working out everything. Some things have already been made clear to me, why I react the way I do in certain situations. So at any rate she also thinks that I may have something medically wrong with me that would cause the depression. Personally I am having symptoms of a hormonal imbalance or a type of tumor on the pituitary gland. I had issues with weight loss and such, I had talked to my previous doctor about it and was told it was ok.

So I have an appointment set up for March, the one thing that tells me that there is something wrong is that I have liquid leaking from my breast when pressure is applied. I know TMI but there is very little if any chance I could be pregnant as I had my tubes tied. So unless it's cancer it can be fixed.

My kids are doing great, my marriage is just like any other lol. I just have personal stuff to get in order.

I did have one run in with the cousin whom I spoke about before. My last counseling session, I can see now that she and I will never be friends again. She was always competitive with me, envious of me and made a lot of rude comments during the 7 years I spoke to her on that level. With the last 2 years being the worse of them all, my problem is that I seem to always attract the same type of females. Anyway she told me she can not trust me because I told my husband what I did ( how does she look saying she can't trust me cause I have a husband, very stupid) I told her that I can't trust her because of all the things she said, and it has become clear to me that she has been playing the fence with other family members and telling them what I told her about them (yes negative) in confidence to her.

So what I learned from her is she has been running her mouth to them about negative stuff I have said about there lifestyle ( leaving out what any she said of course and that she would screw the boyfriend of another cousin whom she talks to on the phone.)

But I'm supposed to keep dealing with her.

That she can't trust me because I told my husband, whom does not like her cause he knows every trifling thing she has said or done, what she has told me in confidence.

So I am wrong for talking to my now husband and when he was my S/O and she is right for telling what she did. I know she did because some of the words I told her were told back to me by the family member I said them about.

How does that sound?

I mean I could easily have ran back to the same family members and told them what she said about them also. That's not my style and never was, So as a result some of them do not like me because of what she told them.

In a way I feel used because when we first started talking they (family)did not like her because they said she was a crap starter and there was a rumor that she had preformed a sex act on the same cousin who's boyfriend she now talks to on the phone. He is an old boyfriend/ babydady back when she was a teen, this boyfriend fathered my cousins now 10 or 11 year old child, now that I think about it this cousin has always been competitive with females. How so, the cousin of the 10 or 11 year old, the kids father is the cousin of this same competitive cousin 2 daughters. My first cousin was dating the guy who later fathered her kid, when my first (really 1st lol) cousin got pregnant by the guy, the competitive cousin got pregnant also by the cousin of my first cousin's baby daddy. The competitive cousin got caught by the first cousin's baby daddy's mom doing the sex act on him. I was not in the picture when all this happened.
So 2 cousins have kids from a family of 2 cousins.

This competitive cousin was not liked by family because of the sex act, which she on the phone confessed to me she did do on him, saying so what she was just a kid.

So anyway I feel used because they did not like her and when she started running back feeding them information, Now they like her, but little do they know she wants to screw the first cousins boyfriend whom (1st cousin ) just had a kid with. That she has been to the guys job a few times, talks to him on the phone (which he spilled all the cousins business to). They first met in a club about 2 or 3 years ago and exchanged numbers. I never liked the fact that she was talking to him and as I began to comment on what they were doing she started telling me less and less.

Since I have talked to this cousin she has had run ins with her female friends and there boyfriends liking her. I never let her get that close if at all to my husband. She took pride in knowing that she talks to this cousins man in that fashion. Anyway she and I will never be on that level and if they want to side with her, let them. I have my own full plate of stuff going on.

First day back to school in a week???

God I'm tired.

Random ramble

How is everyone?
I hope all is well for you guys.

So I have been in a funk now for about a week. Not so sure why but it is there. I think it has something to do with me kicking a female cousin that I treated like a sister out of my life.

Without going into to many details I will just say after dealing with her for a good 6 years I finally had enough. The final straw came at the tale end of December, with a few comments she made. One involving my new car, another her telling me I should have lied to my husband when he asked me a question about something I had done for her.

I can't for the life of me figure out why she would tell me I should have lied, knowing that those types of things cause problems. Unless she really did not care about my family or my marriage.
So at any rate she was the major drama in my life and now she is gone.

Going off of past comments, no I don't think she cared about my marriage. Only what I could or would do for her.

One thing I remember her telling me years ago when I first started taking care of my hair was, that it will never grow, shoulder length is the length it is meant to be. Whenever we where together at family events and someone would comment on how long my hair is she would be quick to say " but it's thin". She did this on the phone once when I was on 3 way with her and a girl she knew, she even went so far as to describe in detail what type of thinness she was talking about. For the record my hair is not thin, if she knew anything about hair she would understand what a relaxer does to hair strands.
Anyway I am finally done I have too much going on in my life to be surrounded by someone so negative and full of envy.

Lets talk about Pep.

Omg, ok this show is funny. Kandi of the show Real Housewives of Atlanta said it's her version of Sex in the City and I totally agree. I am watching it now since I dvr'ed it last night, now Fantasia for real, thats another subject.

New Years eve.

Our New years was very nice I had a good time with hubby and the people he works with. It's really like a big family, We met up than drove down to the resturant all in 2 stretch hummers. After eating we went to a club to ring in the new year and stayed there until 2am. I went with my kids and picked out my dress on Tuesday, the dress custume jewerly shoes and all that. I must say I made a good choice, of course I sent hubby pics of me in the dress before I brought it lol. The reguler price of the dress was $89.99 and it was on sale for $69.99 all purchases were final so I wanted his ok on the dress before buying it. Here's a picture of me in my dress, of course I cropped out hubby. My dress is all black with silver sparkley details and a slit up the front and the back was exposed til about midback level, hubby had on a black suit and white shirt with a tie that he later ditched. We are inside the club we (group) had a whole section to ourselves.

My hair was flat ironed with my ends curled a little.
This picture was taken with my blackberry, lol we need a new camera since mines broke and his gotten stolen or lost lol.

Happy New Years to everyone and your family.
Family first in 2010!